As I waved my hands to my parents
And sat back across my seat
The train rustled past the fields
Leaving me to the fate of my own set of thoughts
With my eyelids shut and body relaxed
I tried to see those beautiful moments
Amidst all the commotion of the Indian railways
I listened to the soft music of my heart without getting any further perplexed
I tasted the good home made food
I smelled the roses behind my room
I touched the little fingers of my 2 year old niece
I saw all the 15 members of my family sitting on our large dining table
Suddenly I felt a tap on my shoulder
Annoyed by the intrusion I looked at the person
Before I could, he said “ticket please”
All I could say was “ just a minute please “
It was then I realized the presence of people around
And the sad fact that I was no more in my mothers lap
I casually glanced around which wasn’t really very casual
To see who all will I be spending the next 26 hours with
To my left sat a young honeymoon couple
While right in front of me was an old pair
And as I saw to the right my heart pounded
There were 2 good options available; to make my own couple
For the next few hours
I tried to play the role of an observer
And amazed was I to see the complexity of the behavior
By the time I could conclude my journey ended
Suddenly things changed so did my thoughts
I realized its time to get back to the 5th floor
Here I sit with a faint smile thinking about the last 10 days
And I am at a loss of lines to complete what I started with on the rails
About Me
- Sriram Agrawal
- Economics->MBA->Analyst->Business aaahh... Looks like a damn CV. Let me try again. Foodie-Moviefreak-Travel & Photography enthusiast->and of course a Blogger.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
Please suggest a title!!!
Why does is happen that life always seems beautiful when I look at it in a retrospect? Why do I value things only when I no more own it? Why do I always look at our childhood pictures and say, “I wish I could get that life back?” Why do I always want to get back to that same place where I was born when all the life I have done everything possible to run away from it? Why do I now desire to be with all those people and all those things from which I wanted to move ahead?
I always wondered why people get nostalgic and used to be no less than surprised at their so called weird behavior until I myself behaved the same way. I could never realize the importance of my primary school teachers unless I moved ahead to senior secondary school. I could never feel the warmth of my school friend’s love until I moved to college away from almost all of them. Neither could I ever relate myself to my home before I lived all alone in a single room flat for 3 years while at college. I never did enjoyed the home cooked food until I slept empty stomach in my flat because the tiffin service was too bad to be eaten. For the first time in my life I hated the panner kulcha and malai kofta and missed the plain kadhi chaawal prepared by my mom. I always thought that I could very well stay all alone with my friends until when I actually had to do it. And then I missed those everyday scoldings I got at home as a result of my endless mischief. Every time I think about these thoughts I try to explain myself that life was beautiful then bit I am not going to miss what I have in present because there is nothing worth missing. And as you would think I was proved wrong every time as I missed every stage of my life which has already passed and all the good/bad memories attached to the same. This was what I realized when I was in my final year of graduation and so took all care to express my state of mind to all those who were close to me.
However life is never so black and white. This noble act of mine gave me the status of being an “ emotional fool” out of all those with whom I shared my deep thoughts only a few reciprocated and rest were more of amused;which wasn’t amusing to me at all. It gave another jerk to me and my thoughts and so I decided to further modify my actions and attitude.
This gave birth to a completely new individual who now has little place for emotions (he doesn’t like being called an emotional fool) and is by far highly practical. He now tries to be emotionally detached with anyone and everyone not because he has no emotions but because he fears the pain of separation. But great men say, “Attitude towards anything in life takes the lifetime to develop and its not a child's play to just modify it according to the fancies of human mind.” Today I realize how true they were!
Today I see myself stuck in the middle of a vast sea of attitudes, values and thoughts. Everywhere I see the reflection views I once held, hold or ones which are in the process of formation. Everywhere I see the mirage of what I used to propagate and now am diametrically opposite to the same. One on hand I am pulled by the forces of rationality and free mind which I cultivated in the course of time and on the other hand there are the forces of culture and tradition which try to bring me back to that same age old mentality. And the dilemma is I respect both of them in spite of knowing the fact that the two are repelling to each other. I have turned into a mind with a big dichotomy of thoughts messed up with the arguments of rationality and blind trust. The result is the growing inconsistency in what I think what I believe what I propagate what I do and what I want to do. And trust me it’s far too complicated than what it looks right now. It’s the amazing capacity of the human brain to absorb all these endless commotion of the mind heart and soul and the adaptivity of the humans which still keeps it intact.
If you still doubt me just get back to the first paragraph of the text and try to relate it with this one. I bet it has no connection and I bet I can establish one if you want me to. Its all about the inconsistency of human mind, rather the inconsistency of my mind.
I always wondered why people get nostalgic and used to be no less than surprised at their so called weird behavior until I myself behaved the same way. I could never realize the importance of my primary school teachers unless I moved ahead to senior secondary school. I could never feel the warmth of my school friend’s love until I moved to college away from almost all of them. Neither could I ever relate myself to my home before I lived all alone in a single room flat for 3 years while at college. I never did enjoyed the home cooked food until I slept empty stomach in my flat because the tiffin service was too bad to be eaten. For the first time in my life I hated the panner kulcha and malai kofta and missed the plain kadhi chaawal prepared by my mom. I always thought that I could very well stay all alone with my friends until when I actually had to do it. And then I missed those everyday scoldings I got at home as a result of my endless mischief. Every time I think about these thoughts I try to explain myself that life was beautiful then bit I am not going to miss what I have in present because there is nothing worth missing. And as you would think I was proved wrong every time as I missed every stage of my life which has already passed and all the good/bad memories attached to the same. This was what I realized when I was in my final year of graduation and so took all care to express my state of mind to all those who were close to me.
However life is never so black and white. This noble act of mine gave me the status of being an “ emotional fool” out of all those with whom I shared my deep thoughts only a few reciprocated and rest were more of amused;which wasn’t amusing to me at all. It gave another jerk to me and my thoughts and so I decided to further modify my actions and attitude.
This gave birth to a completely new individual who now has little place for emotions (he doesn’t like being called an emotional fool) and is by far highly practical. He now tries to be emotionally detached with anyone and everyone not because he has no emotions but because he fears the pain of separation. But great men say, “Attitude towards anything in life takes the lifetime to develop and its not a child's play to just modify it according to the fancies of human mind.” Today I realize how true they were!
Today I see myself stuck in the middle of a vast sea of attitudes, values and thoughts. Everywhere I see the reflection views I once held, hold or ones which are in the process of formation. Everywhere I see the mirage of what I used to propagate and now am diametrically opposite to the same. One on hand I am pulled by the forces of rationality and free mind which I cultivated in the course of time and on the other hand there are the forces of culture and tradition which try to bring me back to that same age old mentality. And the dilemma is I respect both of them in spite of knowing the fact that the two are repelling to each other. I have turned into a mind with a big dichotomy of thoughts messed up with the arguments of rationality and blind trust. The result is the growing inconsistency in what I think what I believe what I propagate what I do and what I want to do. And trust me it’s far too complicated than what it looks right now. It’s the amazing capacity of the human brain to absorb all these endless commotion of the mind heart and soul and the adaptivity of the humans which still keeps it intact.
If you still doubt me just get back to the first paragraph of the text and try to relate it with this one. I bet it has no connection and I bet I can establish one if you want me to. Its all about the inconsistency of human mind, rather the inconsistency of my mind.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Either as your lover, or as your best friend!!
I know you never did, nor you would ever care
For all that I wanted you to share
Everything I have ever wanted to do for you
Trying real hard to make you feel my care
It’s never been easy to tell you
The fact that for you I ll always be there
What I express is nothing but true
It’s just about you and only you
I never get so much of a comfort
As I get when I am with you
You were rude and you made me cry
The agony I underwent I can’t deny
Still I hope to work things out
And I ll do it without the slightest doubt
Just tell me once if you feel the same way too
Or ever felt in past to start brand new
I promise to give you all the happiness
I ll be there by your side I bet
And if you still feel like crossing on the corpse of my love
And still if you want it all to end
Just remember that I'll be there till the end
Either as your lover, or as your best friend!!
For all that I wanted you to share
Everything I have ever wanted to do for you
Trying real hard to make you feel my care
It’s never been easy to tell you
The fact that for you I ll always be there
What I express is nothing but true
It’s just about you and only you
I never get so much of a comfort
As I get when I am with you
You were rude and you made me cry
The agony I underwent I can’t deny
Still I hope to work things out
And I ll do it without the slightest doubt
Just tell me once if you feel the same way too
Or ever felt in past to start brand new
I promise to give you all the happiness
I ll be there by your side I bet
And if you still feel like crossing on the corpse of my love
And still if you want it all to end
Just remember that I'll be there till the end
Either as your lover, or as your best friend!!
Sunday, February 8, 2009
The Sunrise AND The Sunset...
Everyday when the sun sets
And every morning when the sun rises
It’s not just the days that pass
But a ray of hope that sets and arises
Each sunrise brings with itself
A hope to get a life
A hope to earn a life
A hope to bid adieu the life
Each sunset when the sun goes down the horizon
There's a daughter who eagerly waits for her father to come back home
There's a wife who anxiously waits for her man to bring a packet of happiness
There's a mother who prays all day long for the well being of her young son
With every sunrise we have a man who never slept with the fear of being late
And with every sunset there is a businessman who burns the midnight lamp
There is a young boy who wakes up with the first ray of the beautiful sun across the fields
And there is a young girl who watches both the moon and sun without a single blink of the eye
And here I sit exactly in the middle of the two
While the sun has set; there is still some time for it to rise again
I find my life guarded by the 2 inevitable of the universe
The sunrise and the sunsets
The failures of the past have set and is a matter of past
While I sit here amidst the darkness fighting my way out
I can foresee the first ray of hope coming up with the sunrise
I know now the time has come to taste the success
It’s only about putting in those last seconds of the effort
And then it ll be my day for sure
A day when I ll command both the sunrise and the sunset
A day when I ll command both the days and the nights sublime
A day when I ll replay the stories left on the sands of time
And every morning when the sun rises
It’s not just the days that pass
But a ray of hope that sets and arises
Each sunrise brings with itself
A hope to get a life
A hope to earn a life
A hope to bid adieu the life
Each sunset when the sun goes down the horizon
There's a daughter who eagerly waits for her father to come back home
There's a wife who anxiously waits for her man to bring a packet of happiness
There's a mother who prays all day long for the well being of her young son
With every sunrise we have a man who never slept with the fear of being late
And with every sunset there is a businessman who burns the midnight lamp
There is a young boy who wakes up with the first ray of the beautiful sun across the fields
And there is a young girl who watches both the moon and sun without a single blink of the eye
And here I sit exactly in the middle of the two
While the sun has set; there is still some time for it to rise again
I find my life guarded by the 2 inevitable of the universe
The sunrise and the sunsets
The failures of the past have set and is a matter of past
While I sit here amidst the darkness fighting my way out
I can foresee the first ray of hope coming up with the sunrise
I know now the time has come to taste the success
It’s only about putting in those last seconds of the effort
And then it ll be my day for sure
A day when I ll command both the sunrise and the sunset
A day when I ll command both the days and the nights sublime
A day when I ll replay the stories left on the sands of time
Saturday, January 24, 2009
just a mix of thoughts...
We have changed .. in past years.. have a look.
u don't open a telephone conversation with a HELLO but with a "Hi"
The telephone is never "engaged", it's always "busy".
U don't "disconnect" a phone, U simply "hang-up".
U never "mess-up" things, U only "screw them up".
U never have a "residence" tel. no., U have a "home" no.
U don't stop at the "signals", but halt at the "lights".
U don't "accelerate", U "step on the gas".
Your tire never "punctures", U may have a "flat".
The trains have "coaches" or "boggies' no more but "carriages" or "boxes".
There R no "petrol pumps", but "gas stations".
"I don't know nothing", 2 negatives don't make a positive here.
U no longer meet a "wonderful" person, U meet a "cool" guy
U don't pull the switch down to light a bulb,rather flick it up.
There's no "Business Area" only "business districts", and no "districts" but
"counties".
No one stays "a stone's throw away", might"a few blocks away".
There's no "Town Side", it's "Down Town".
In hotel U no longer ask for "bill" and pay by "cheque", rather ask for "check" and
pay with (Dollar) "bill"s.
There R no "soft drinks", only "sodas".
Life's no longer "miserable" it "stinks".
U don't have a "great" time, U have a "ball".
U don't "sweat it out", U "work U'r butt off".
Never "post" a letter, always "mail" it and "glue" the stamps, don't "stick" them.
U no longer live in "flats" or "blocks", find an "apartment".
U don't stand in a "queue", you are in a "line".
U no longer "like" something, U "appreciate" it.
"#" is not "hash", it's "pound".
U R not "deaf", U have "impaired hearing".
U R not "lunatic", U are just "mentally challenged".
U R not "disgusting" U R "sick".
U can't get "surprised" U get "zapped".
U don't "schedule" a meeting, U "skejule" it.
U never "joke", U just "kid".
U never "increase" the pressure, U always "crank" it up.
U never ask for a pencil "rubber" U ask for an eraser. a rubber is a condom
U don't try to find a lift U find an elevator.
U no more ask for a route but for a "RAUT"
U don't ask somebody "How r u ?", U say "What's up dude?"
U never go to see a game U go to watch a game.
If U see "World" champions(or Series),read "USA"champions(or Series).
There's no "zero" but "o", no "Z" but "zee".
There's no FULL STOP after a statement, there's a PERIOD.
If someone gets angry at U, U get "flamed".
You don't say "How do you do", you say "How you doin"
In short U don't speak English, U speak American.
Well u dont' say life is boring u say LIFE SUCKS !!!!!
P.S. the above said view are not orignal creation of the blogger but he sincerely believes in almost all of them
Sriram Agrawal
u don't open a telephone conversation with a HELLO but with a "Hi"
The telephone is never "engaged", it's always "busy".
U don't "disconnect" a phone, U simply "hang-up".
U never "mess-up" things, U only "screw them up".
U never have a "residence" tel. no., U have a "home" no.
U don't stop at the "signals", but halt at the "lights".
U don't "accelerate", U "step on the gas".
Your tire never "punctures", U may have a "flat".
The trains have "coaches" or "boggies' no more but "carriages" or "boxes".
There R no "petrol pumps", but "gas stations".
"I don't know nothing", 2 negatives don't make a positive here.
U no longer meet a "wonderful" person, U meet a "cool" guy
U don't pull the switch down to light a bulb,rather flick it up.
There's no "Business Area" only "business districts", and no "districts" but
"counties".
No one stays "a stone's throw away", might"a few blocks away".
There's no "Town Side", it's "Down Town".
In hotel U no longer ask for "bill" and pay by "cheque", rather ask for "check" and
pay with (Dollar) "bill"s.
There R no "soft drinks", only "sodas".
Life's no longer "miserable" it "stinks".
U don't have a "great" time, U have a "ball".
U don't "sweat it out", U "work U'r butt off".
Never "post" a letter, always "mail" it and "glue" the stamps, don't "stick" them.
U no longer live in "flats" or "blocks", find an "apartment".
U don't stand in a "queue", you are in a "line".
U no longer "like" something, U "appreciate" it.
"#" is not "hash", it's "pound".
U R not "deaf", U have "impaired hearing".
U R not "lunatic", U are just "mentally challenged".
U R not "disgusting" U R "sick".
U can't get "surprised" U get "zapped".
U don't "schedule" a meeting, U "skejule" it.
U never "joke", U just "kid".
U never "increase" the pressure, U always "crank" it up.
U never ask for a pencil "rubber" U ask for an eraser. a rubber is a condom
U don't try to find a lift U find an elevator.
U no more ask for a route but for a "RAUT"
U don't ask somebody "How r u ?", U say "What's up dude?"
U never go to see a game U go to watch a game.
If U see "World" champions(or Series),read "USA"champions(or Series).
There's no "zero" but "o", no "Z" but "zee".
There's no FULL STOP after a statement, there's a PERIOD.
If someone gets angry at U, U get "flamed".
You don't say "How do you do", you say "How you doin"
In short U don't speak English, U speak American.
Well u dont' say life is boring u say LIFE SUCKS !!!!!
P.S. the above said view are not orignal creation of the blogger but he sincerely believes in almost all of them
Sriram Agrawal
Friday, January 23, 2009
A typical day of PGA students @ KJ SIMSR
Early morning hours just before the class begins
It’s Monday morning and the class is scheduled from 10 30 am onwards. 2 boys fast asleep in room no 521. The alarm rings at 7 am with the best of its capabilities trying to pierce down through the ear drums of the 2 future managers who have slept just a couple of hours back(anytime between 3 to 5 am). An automatic mechanism makes the taller one react in a particular way such that the hands fall right on the alarm button and switching it off (not even snooze). The moving body then gets back to sleep without ever realizing what happened. Exactly after 2hrs 25 min the other one jumps out of bed and looks at the watch wondering why didn’t the alarm ring !!!
SR: (looking horrified at the watch) oh shit!!! Dude wake up…. Its time….
RDA: (disturbed) why so early man… what time is it???
SR: 10:26 am
RDA: when do we have our class and who's lecture is it now…
SR: FM@10:30am
SR&RDA: (simultaneously) Oh f**k…… not again…….
They think for a moment and both of them rush to lie their hands on whatever is fit enough to wear and run to the academic building praying that the gate doesn’t close. And as usual they often succeed in their endeavor without fail.
Well inspite of all this they are never the last ones to enter…a few more always beat them in this regard… m sure names are not important “quote unquote” to add to it one can always find a couple of troubled hearts desperately trying to prove themselves as SIMSRites when the gatekeeper stops them at 10 29 am for not carring that stupid hanging I card.
While the 2 poor souls disturbed from their sleep were running for their life there were people from all regions of India sitting in the mess table gobbling the mess food seriously discussing who had the maximum no of head shots last night. Without any doubt the CS domain is a kind of oligopoly with a few leading market players who can turn the events anytime in their favor. (Apologies for the eco effect)
While the professor desperately attempts to start the class people keep pouring in at continuous intervals. Few of them have a bread loaf in their hands instead of a register and a few reluctantly sit in the first bench when they find all the back (coveted) seats already occupied.
And then finally at around 10 50 the class finally takes off to meet yet another set of events…..
To be continued…
It’s Monday morning and the class is scheduled from 10 30 am onwards. 2 boys fast asleep in room no 521. The alarm rings at 7 am with the best of its capabilities trying to pierce down through the ear drums of the 2 future managers who have slept just a couple of hours back(anytime between 3 to 5 am). An automatic mechanism makes the taller one react in a particular way such that the hands fall right on the alarm button and switching it off (not even snooze). The moving body then gets back to sleep without ever realizing what happened. Exactly after 2hrs 25 min the other one jumps out of bed and looks at the watch wondering why didn’t the alarm ring !!!
SR: (looking horrified at the watch) oh shit!!! Dude wake up…. Its time….
RDA: (disturbed) why so early man… what time is it???
SR: 10:26 am
RDA: when do we have our class and who's lecture is it now…
SR: FM@10:30am
SR&RDA: (simultaneously) Oh f**k…… not again…….
They think for a moment and both of them rush to lie their hands on whatever is fit enough to wear and run to the academic building praying that the gate doesn’t close. And as usual they often succeed in their endeavor without fail.
Well inspite of all this they are never the last ones to enter…a few more always beat them in this regard… m sure names are not important “quote unquote” to add to it one can always find a couple of troubled hearts desperately trying to prove themselves as SIMSRites when the gatekeeper stops them at 10 29 am for not carring that stupid hanging I card.
While the 2 poor souls disturbed from their sleep were running for their life there were people from all regions of India sitting in the mess table gobbling the mess food seriously discussing who had the maximum no of head shots last night. Without any doubt the CS domain is a kind of oligopoly with a few leading market players who can turn the events anytime in their favor. (Apologies for the eco effect)
While the professor desperately attempts to start the class people keep pouring in at continuous intervals. Few of them have a bread loaf in their hands instead of a register and a few reluctantly sit in the first bench when they find all the back (coveted) seats already occupied.
And then finally at around 10 50 the class finally takes off to meet yet another set of events…..
To be continued…
Monday, January 12, 2009
Love @ Accounts
Strangely I am so glad today
And as I occupy the first row in the class
Right in front of me is my accounts professor teaching
And a green board with white dwarfs dancing
The class is so full of commotion
A few answer quietly, while others shout (peeping into those answers)
There’s a boy who seems so confident
While the masses are under a vent
Suddenly I wonder!!!!
Why am I so glad with a continuous smile?
Neither do I understand what’s there on the board
Nor do I have someone beautiful sitting right next to me… or do I?
As I see her laugh i quietly smile
And when I look at her goosebumps I smile again
And I smile at every action of her
Even when she scolds someone in her very own manner
She is certainly very pretty and beautiful
Her eyes so bright her neck so elegant
She laughs like a bird set free in air
And sleeps with all the tranquility amalgamated
I do not love her; though I like her
I may not be her friend; but she is mine
And I have only one dream to dream
To hold her hand; fingers entwined
And say “I care for you"
And as I occupy the first row in the class
Right in front of me is my accounts professor teaching
And a green board with white dwarfs dancing
The class is so full of commotion
A few answer quietly, while others shout (peeping into those answers)
There’s a boy who seems so confident
While the masses are under a vent
Suddenly I wonder!!!!
Why am I so glad with a continuous smile?
Neither do I understand what’s there on the board
Nor do I have someone beautiful sitting right next to me… or do I?
As I see her laugh i quietly smile
And when I look at her goosebumps I smile again
And I smile at every action of her
Even when she scolds someone in her very own manner
She is certainly very pretty and beautiful
Her eyes so bright her neck so elegant
She laughs like a bird set free in air
And sleeps with all the tranquility amalgamated
I do not love her; though I like her
I may not be her friend; but she is mine
And I have only one dream to dream
To hold her hand; fingers entwined
And say “I care for you"
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