Sunday, June 28, 2009
Being brought up in a joint family with 17 members living under the same roof and sharing the same kitchen, I was bestowed with an army of relatives spread all across the country with most of them concentrated in the neighboring states. However from the time I first went out to study I could rarely meet most of them. It isn’t that they never came or we never went, but of everyone I knew, it was just me who missed so many functions at home. Past 2 years, I couldn’t even meet all my family members also as most of them were too busy expanding the family business. Most of my cousins probably forgot the way I looked and owing to my weak memory I didn’t even remember all of them. I never missed not being at a function or a ceremony at home, but I did miss the fact that everyone but me was present and that it did make my mother a little sad. However this pseudo vacation I had gave me a chance to see all of them. Rather I could safely say that I met almost everyone I wanted to in all these years and no words could probably express my happiness and satisfaction. To emphasise, I met some 20 cousins of mine along with my 11 nephews and niece. The best part wasn’t just the fun I had with them talking about all the things which has happened in the recent past, but it was actually being scolded by my elder sister in the same way as like when I was a little kid. At least it gave me a feeling of belongingness and a reassurance that they still feel they have the right over me. In this age of breaking and distant relationships, these small facts make a big difference to someone like me.
To add I got a chance to see my school friends after a long time. Again the reason was the first time we all were all in the city at the same time. It never occurred earlier as I and my engineering friends never had a vacation at the same time. Probably meeting them once again brought a fresh flow of energy and enthusiasm as well as the real meaning of being friends. In all these days I once again got to hear the old jokes and habits of my friends, I once again got to hear those school time gossips and once again I got to share my thoughts with people who I know would respect never make fun of behind my back.
I got a chance to meet all my old school teachers who were teachers in the real sense and getting to be recognized and still remembered by the primary school teachers gave a feeling of joy which very few things in this world could ever give.
But all happy times are accompanied by worries and issues we need t resolve. All this time I kept on wondering if a little more efforts from my side would have helped me get even a better project which would have certainly aided my career and brought a little more security to it in times of the present crisis. Probably it did make me sad to know the fact that someone who is plans to take up finance is doing a summer project in marketing, however good it might be.
But when I weigh the 2 aspect where on one hand I had the time of my life with my extended family friends and teachers having a conversation which was both sophisticated and simple against the possibilities of a slightly better career option I gave up on my choice, I do now realize I am a good decision maker. Probably this was a very small step, rather unremarkable or unimportant in the bigger picture, but for me as an individual I got a firsthand experience of choosing between career and family. Rather living and making the most of it from the choices I made and not waste my time repenting on what could have been a possibility.
At least for now I am happy and excited with a slight shade of sadness. Happy because I had a good time at home; excited because there are once again going to be new set of challenges to face when back to Mumbai and sad because I will once again have to live on that pestiferous mess food and pesky college authorities.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Every step of life; all for whom we care
Each one them feels for some or the other person
Whether he lives in a hut or she stays in a mansion
Centuries back people seldom expressed love
And later it was all done through a dove
What hasn’t changed is showing love by a simple hug
But today people write “I love you “and give it in a mug
Every form of expression is for a select few
A handshake is for friends; a kiss is for the beloved
A pat on back is by a teacher; a punch is for the enemy
A peck is for loved ones while a cuddle is for the intimate ones
But of all that one could think off
By all that one gets tuned on; or put off
There is a form of human expression
And shows the zenith of human compassion
A mother gives it to her baby
A father gives it to his graduation son
A brother gives it to his sister while she ties the knot of life time
A husband gives it to his wife as she falls into his arms
A man gives it to a lady with all his heart
A boy gives it to a girl when they are about to part
A friend gives it to a friend when they find happiness
A hero gives it to the enemy who just changed asking for forgiveness
A simple hug is what people call this act
I call it the life line of every human embrace
Biggest and the gravest problems of complex human relations
Can be set right with something as simple as a hug
Its funny how a little hug makes everyone feel good;
In every place and language it’s always understood.
It soothes a crying baby; pacifies an angry man
Precipitates emotions; disappears the melancholies
There's something in a hug that warms the heart;
It welcomes you back home and makes it easier to part.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Whenever I open my closet
Moments later I find myself upset
And as I browse through the pages of years before
My heart pounds and aches all the more
Come 2005 and the month of February
I see a young couple madly in love
Exchanging cards and promises and a secret smile
To love even if they live seas apart or just a mile
Come 2009 and the month of February
I see the two of them so happy so intimate
And beside them I watch 2 new faces equally close
Each to the ones who were in love back into the wheels of time
I wondered what to think of or speak to them
Whether to be happy or to be envious of what they have
Or to be moron and mourn of what they possibly have not
I chose neither to think and nor to speak
Growing from when I was 16 to now when I am 22
Having experienced a variety of closeness
Some brought only happiness while some only sadness
Some were all about jokes while the rest were about flings
All of them seemed to be like a love to me
In one definition or the other or the ones created by me
But from all of it I could desire only a few
Ones which make me sad or unwanted
And then I asked myself a question!!!
Answer to which was neither hidden nor difficult
Still the irrationality of the human mind
Makes it impossible to accept; but now I do
Who did I love the most?
The one who brought tears to me while I earned smiles for her face
Who loved me the most?
The one who bought me only smiles for nothing in return.